the "Highs and Lows" of Highs

I am covered with the fingerprints of God. This year especially He has been molding me and stretching me, stripping me of strongholds I've dealt with for years. I can't think of a time in my life when the progressive work of God has been so vivid and distinct.

So with that said, in preparation for my trip there has been a big looming issue I have found. I have a huge lack of faith in the work of God in my life.

Let me explain. When I was a kid, I loved going to camps. For great reasons too. It was a time when the forefront of my mind was focused on Jesus. The worship was incredible. The speaker was incredible. The fellowship with my youth ministry was incredible. So good. So whether it was at Falls Creek or Super Summer, or a weeklong mission trip, it was a time when God had me. It was also a time when a term i affectionately call the "camp high" takes place. It usually happens on Thursday night or Friday night of the week. Extended worship. A lot of tears and emotions. A lot of godly conviction. There's a move of the Holy Spirit. And it was almost as if we had to be in that special place for His Spirit to move in power like He did.

So I'm not trying to ground my expectations. Believe me, I DO NOT WANT TO BE REALISTIC. Realism is a wordly term. God is in the business of the impossible. Healing the impossible disease, saving the impossible sinner, convicting the impossible pharisee.I should live with these expectations every second of my day.

But why should my expectations be any higher in India than they are in Norman, OK? Why should His anointing happen there this summer and not here this morning? Why do we feel we have to be somewhere to see any life change? God has placed me in Norman, OK. God is going to move in me in Norman, OK. This summer God will place me in South India. God is going to move in me in India. Plane tickets are not essential for more anointing or life change.

Father, heal my disbelief that you care about me so much that your fullness is obtainable anywhere, at anytime. Allow me to make a home in Your sanctification. And bring revival to these cities.

In light of Grace,

Weston