the "Highs and Lows" of Highs

I am covered with the fingerprints of God. This year especially He has been molding me and stretching me, stripping me of strongholds I've dealt with for years. I can't think of a time in my life when the progressive work of God has been so vivid and distinct.

So with that said, in preparation for my trip there has been a big looming issue I have found. I have a huge lack of faith in the work of God in my life.

Let me explain. When I was a kid, I loved going to camps. For great reasons too. It was a time when the forefront of my mind was focused on Jesus. The worship was incredible. The speaker was incredible. The fellowship with my youth ministry was incredible. So good. So whether it was at Falls Creek or Super Summer, or a weeklong mission trip, it was a time when God had me. It was also a time when a term i affectionately call the "camp high" takes place. It usually happens on Thursday night or Friday night of the week. Extended worship. A lot of tears and emotions. A lot of godly conviction. There's a move of the Holy Spirit. And it was almost as if we had to be in that special place for His Spirit to move in power like He did.

So I'm not trying to ground my expectations. Believe me, I DO NOT WANT TO BE REALISTIC. Realism is a wordly term. God is in the business of the impossible. Healing the impossible disease, saving the impossible sinner, convicting the impossible pharisee.I should live with these expectations every second of my day.

But why should my expectations be any higher in India than they are in Norman, OK? Why should His anointing happen there this summer and not here this morning? Why do we feel we have to be somewhere to see any life change? God has placed me in Norman, OK. God is going to move in me in Norman, OK. This summer God will place me in South India. God is going to move in me in India. Plane tickets are not essential for more anointing or life change.

Father, heal my disbelief that you care about me so much that your fullness is obtainable anywhere, at anytime. Allow me to make a home in Your sanctification. And bring revival to these cities.

In light of Grace,

Weston

Tonight's Encounter

Wow. I wish I could better express how I feel towards tonight's worship and His blessing, but it's impossible. I don't know what's going to happen or what next year will look like or what kind of anointing will come over the summer for our ministry, but it's going to be huge. Is this what it looks when the "overcomers" begin to arise? His sons and daughters manifesting the Spirit to no limit? I believe the clouds are beginning to form, and that with every desperate cry for revival and the Father's blessing the cloud thickens until our desperation becomes so thick and so concentrated that the Father no longer withholds the rain. Why does God not send revival when He has the power to do so? When it is His Spirit that creates the revival? Because only the most desperate and unquenchable people get to drink from the hydrant.

"Be glad, O children of Zion, and rejoice in the Lord your God, for He has given the early rain for your vindication; he has poured down for you abundant rain, the early and the latter rain."

Joel 2:23

I have no clue what it's going to look like when revival comes. I'm preparing for my expectations to be blown.

The word God gave me tonight in worship was "encounter continuity with Jesus". This means that as passionate as we are to worship Him in numbers, the fuel for more and more will come in times of deep intimacy with Him when we're alone. In song, in prayer and intercession, fasting, knowing Your character through Your Word.

The most unquenchable worshiper is the most foolish and undignified of all.

Make me a fool, Jesus.

Weston

18 Days!

Well I have 18 days to go before hopping on a plane and jumping the pond on my way to South India for over two months. The preparation has been a little stressful, but God has been continually pouring Himself out on me.

The name for the blog, "the Telling", came out of Habakkuk 1:5: "Look at the nations and watch--and be utterly amazed. For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told."

Just as God promised in Joel 2:28, His Spirit is being poured out, and it will continue to be poured out. This blog is only a telling of the pouring out that we will see in India. I believe I can have all the expectations in the world, yet nothing can possibly prepare me for the goodness of the Lord I am about to witness.

Things to pray for in days ahead:

• the lives we encounter while we're there, and salvation among them
• the six short-term teams that will be coming through and preparation for their hearts
• the long-term team in South India, and the faithful men, women, and children giving their lives for that city and for revival in it.
• the other interns, Heather, Kelsey, Kevin, and Terrance and more anointing in faith. It's faith that heals and sees God move, and we need more of it.
• Revival in South India

Thank you so much for your prayers!

Talk to you soon,

Weston

p.s. As I was typing my passport and visa arrived.